As I start to write this, it is the 76th anniversary of the Japanese bombing of the US Navy base at Pearl Harbor, Hawaii, on December 7, 1941. This was the provocation that galvanized the US public to get behind World War II. My parents remembered where they were when they got the news, just as everyone in my generation can recount where they were when they learned that JFK was shot, and the next generation knows when the Challenger blew up, and so on, until the post-modern world is ensnared together by a single polarizing event on 9-11.
December 7th is more complicated in our family than Pearl Harbor Day, however. Ironically, it became the day I learned to bake Christmas cookies. You see we had to, because my mom’s mom died, and she was too sad to make the krumkake, rosettes, spritz, jam thumb prints and bourbon balls. I was 12. My sister, Sue Ann, was 14. We were not going to have a cookie-less Christmas. Grandma Ingham had died in the wee hours of the morning. My older brother had driven (since he was sober) to the nursing home with my dad. She had been in physical therapy for a broken shoulder. The therapist didn’t heed her cries of pain, and forced it, and broke her spine. It was gruesome.
Sue Ann and I just took over the kitchen, read the recipes, baked cookies for four days. Tom, Alison and Dad were taking care of the details that needed taking care of; talking to relatives and friends, etc. Mom just shut down. She looked more like her mom than ever I had seen her. Her mother suffered from chronic depression and alcoholism. We didn’t have a single picture of her without a look of sadness in her eyes. Now that same look was in my mom’s eyes. It stayed there almost uninterrupted for at least two years.
All of the cookies turned out well, except the spritz I made. The dough was so hard I nearly broke the spritz press forcing the dough out of it onto the cookie trays. I had added green food coloring to make them festive. When they came out of the oven they had not spread and were a bit scorched. Most of them were now green and brown. We put them in a box and added them to the assortment when we put plates of cookies out. Everyone complimented us on our baking. Nobody broke any teeth on the spritz, thankfully.
We went through the visitations and funeral at the funeral home. The younger cousins learned from the two oldest cousins, my brother Tom and cousin Deb, that our grandpa had had another wife between our grandmother, Jane, and our step-grandmother, Wathena (whom we all called “Aunt Wathena”). They were only married for about two years. She wanted to move to California. Cranford just couldn’t do that, so they divorced. I didn’t cry over Grandma Ingham’s death until Christmas Day, when the maple rocking chair where she always sat when she came to our house was empty. One of the afghans she had made was draped over its back. (I cry and sob whenever I read this sentence to this day.)
On December 7, 1978, our second daughter, Rosalie, was born, at home, during a blizzard. The midwife was the ever vivacious, traditionally built Sandy Perkins. She arrived at our front door in East Greenville, PA, and immediately asked if I had water boiling. I replied, “What for? That’s just what they assign men to do to get them out of the way.” In her best black mama voice she said, “You mean to tell me you just made me drive over 45 minutes in a snowstorm, and you don’t even have my coffee ready!” Rosalie was born in our bedroom without complications. Sandy weighed her by hooking a blanket to a fish scale forming a sling and placing Rosalie in it and holding it up.
In late November, 2000, my sister, Sue Ann died. She was 47. It took my older sister, Ali, and me a month and a half of research to uncover the fact that she had committed suicide. Our dad wanted to keep that hidden. I flew out to Minnesota for the funeral. On the morning of the day of Sue Ann’s funeral, I went into Minneapolis to visit Grama Ethel Haanpaa at the Lutheran Home, the high rise retirement community where she had lived for several years. Ethel was not our grandma by blood, but by adoption. She was actually Becky Shostrom’s grandma. I had been engaged to Becky when I was a senior in high school until finals week of my freshman year of college. That’s when she told me she had fallen in love with the bus driver on the spring break choir tour. Grama Ethel and her husband, Emil, kept inviting me to all of the special occasions at their chocolate brown house on 25-1/2 Avenue North. We had become good friends, along with Ethel’s first husband, Al Shostrom, and his girlfriend, Mamie. We were a strange lot. When Bethann and I got engaged, I introduced her to Ethel and Emil. Ethel welcomed Bethann to the family with open arms. Emil passed away shortly after we moved to PA in 1977. Ethel became another grandma to our four girls. We exchanged Christmas gifts and birthday cards, letters and phone calls and always visited her when we got back to Minnesota.
When I got to the Lutheran Home, I did not find Ethel in her apartment. I inquired at the desk and discovered that she was in the hospice care unit. I visited her and can remember our conversation like it was yesterday. She told me that she didn’t want to take the pain meds, because they made her befuddled. She was dying and didn’t see any point wasting what little time she had left being befuddled. She said she needed to settle her accounts and needed a clear head to do that. She then recounted to me what she considered to be her failings and sins. Now she had been a Baptist all her life. Baptists don’t do confession. But I heard hers. We cried together. I assured her that God loved her and she was forgiven for all her failings and regrets. At the time, I was an Orthodox Christian layperson. When I got home, I told my priest, Father Boniface, about how I had heard her confession and assured her of God’s forgiveness. He said, “You did good.” As I left to go to my sister’s funeral, I knew that this was the last time I would see dear, sweet Ethel. She would never bless my “pointed little head” again. In fact, that was the last conversation she had. She slipped into coma and passed away a few days later, on December 7, 2000, at age 92.
So I lost two grandmas on the same day, 23 years apart, and gained a daughter in between.